Waiting for bad things to be over
Four weeks from today (8 Sept) I'll be in my college having dinner in the hall. I can't wait to cross the last few weeks out of my calendar and be done with it. But I'm not there yet. I should write down what I feel about this period of my life before it's over. I want it to be over so badly. So much frustration and noise and exhaustion.. At the same time, I suspect a part of me will miss parts of this although it's smothered in too much pain right now to be noticed. It's amazing how much contradiction can fit into a single person. Now that it's almost over, what am I going to remember from these 2 years of my life? What do I want to remember? What's worth remembering? Are some parts worth forgetting? Similar questions with slightly different connotations. It's been so long since I put my thoughts into words, much less in a reflective way like I'm trying to do with this entry. I stopped journaling because I couldn't see the point in it anym...