house at night

  I had wanted to save that day of leave for the end of the year and go for one long trip all at once, but NS regulations mandated that my public holiday off-in-lieu had an expiry date - annoying, no doubt. But it did mean that I could plan a short trip to China with my parents. I picked   Guangzhou   and Shenzhen for the proximity, flight timings, flight price, and I also wanted to be with my mother who is Cantonese as she explored the city. I had been here once before in March when I stopped by  Guangzhou  and Shenzhen for a day each before going on to meet a friend in Hong Kong. This time I was determined to finish what I had started. I saved a whole bunch of places on Google maps / Amaps from the Michelin guide, general readings on the city, a very outdated NYT article on traveling  Guangzhou , and a couple spots recommended by Xiaohongshu / Douyin. Our flight was from 0355-0800 on China Southern. The plane arrived late but we rushed on board and reache...

Four weeks from today (8 Sept) I'll be in my college having dinner in the hall. I can't wait to cross the last few weeks out of my calendar and be done with it. But I'm not there yet. I should write down what I feel about this period of my life before it's over. I want it to be over so badly. So much frustration and noise and exhaustion..  At the same time, I suspect a part of me will miss parts of this although it's smothered in too much pain right now to be noticed. It's amazing how much contradiction can fit into a single person. Now that it's almost over, what am I going to remember from these 2 years of my life? What do I want to remember? What's worth remembering? Are some parts worth forgetting? Similar questions with slightly different connotations.  It's been so long since I put my thoughts into words, much less in a reflective way like I'm trying to do with this entry. I stopped journaling because I couldn't see the point in it anym...